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02 May 2012 @ 07:47 pm

A golden-winged Angel stood Before the Eternal Judgement-seat: His looks were wild, and Devils' blood Stained his dainty hands and feet. The Father and the Son Knew that strife was now begun. They knew that Satan had broken his chain, And with millions of daemons in his train, Was ranging over the world again. Before the Angel had told his tale, A sweet and a creeping sound Like the rushing of wings was heard around; And suddenly the lamps grew pale-- The lamps, before the Archangels seven, That burn continually in Heaven.
13 July 2012 @ 01:40 am
It's interesting to me that the columbine boys were taking prescribed antidepressants when they went on their murder joyride. Those kinds of medications in large amounts can make a person pretty apathetic, at least in my personal experience- just for a general example, if my favorite character on an intense tv series died, I would be sad, but it wouldn't affect me, where as if I were not on medication I would probably cry and be really touched by it.
It's necessary to dull the negative emotions when they are so intense that they start to destroy your life, but they dull other things as well. I think for some people it can be their sense of instinctual horror at the thought of really planning on murdering other people. I'm sure it wouldn't help if they were people who had wronged and humiliated you all your life (they said that the jocks threw a cup of fecal matter on them. that's pretty fucked up.), people you are forced to see every day. Idk, maybe a factor, if everything in your life has already led in that direction.
I have to kind of sympathize with them a lot, being that kid in tiny hick town being harassed and bullied constantly for being a liberal tree hugger devil worshiping lesbian vampire witch hairy chested slut (yes all of these things), I would get into physical confrontations all the time, and if you scared people enough into thinking you were crazy enough to really hurt them, they would leave you alone. If someone spit on you in the hall you would punch them in the face, obviously. Push you on the stairs? Again, punch them in the face.
One time this little rancher boy actually told me that I should be raped and shot. not even fucking kidding, I don't think anyone has ever said something quite that fucked up to me in my whole life. I took everything on his desk and threw it on the floor and just stood there while his eyes were like cue balls. I was taken out into the hall for it and was going to be punished until I told them why I did it.
It's weird how many of the people who did the most aggressive shit towards me were male.
I definitely wanted to cause them physical pain, enough at least to make them think twice about fucking with me, I didn't care who they were. I just wanted to be left alone. But I don't think I ever could have master minded any plot, and I never would have actually planned, outside of morbid fantasies, to ever -really- hurt or murder someone.
But I can see how it could get to a point where a person could want that, especially for a guy, because it's so acceptable that "boys will be boys", and that only pussies turn down fights, etc.
Not to mention I never had anyone to share twisted fantasies with if I did have them- I'm sure that's more than half of the motivation because they can gain strength from each other. A lone person doubts themselves, but as soon as there's another person involved, everything changes.
13 June 2012 @ 04:54 pm
OH GOD, I'm pretty excited. I've been working on this website on and off for a while now, and it's finally getting close! The layout is about complete and i just need to add a few more things to make it pretty and add the content pages with the template applied to them.
I have a lot of plans for this.... We need a new domain whenever we finally think of one, but....  http://www.glamfur.com

   I love the idea of a  resources page with tutorials, brushes, stock, bases... I already made some really cute character   reference bases I hope to put up on there with psd files for easy coloring and changing the line colors.

  The Group Projects page is another one I'm excited for- as soon as I get the site polished I can start looking at flash paper dolls and how much work they are, etc.... I have another idea for a massive collaboration as well, where everyone will draw a pic of their character and I will photoshop them all into a party environment together. OR a wonderland environment, that might be more fun. Or a giant lollita tea party! ohgodyay.

▲  An artist directory! Any member who wants it can have links to their store, site and galleries, maybe even a little picture of them or their work.

▲ LINKS, I want to make sure I have a lot of them, both to the other places we have groups like lj and da, links to art supply/ craft stores, relevant artists from elsewhere, fashion and accessories, resources, etc.

So yeah, this is soaking up a lot of the time I'd normally be replying to comments and commenting on art lately, but I'm really enthusiastic about getting things rolling again with Pretty Monsters. As soon as the site is done I'm going to make a journal entry in the old Glamfur group on DA and announce the PM group officially and kind of retire from the glamfur group. With Alis never on DA and being the founder there's a lot of annoyance with what I can and can't do as a moderator such as approve affiliations with other groups. Having more active moderators is absolutely necessary for things to run smoothly.

ANYWAY, expect big things.
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